I wish I had better guidance when I was in my college. I wish I had studied more and had concentrated more on my job. I wish I had been more after money, career etc.. and never went for passions or love – I would have been a machine and so life would have hurt me a lot less. Or I wish I had acted on my passions and left the job early – that way I would have made myself set into romantic way and a lack of steady income would have turned me more creative. Now here I am not into anything. Not into my job neither am I into my passions.
But I will have to work. I want to work on linguistics. I will see if I could join a university and get a degree from the university in Germany. I will gain proficiency in as many languages as possible. I will devote to myself to arts and sciences. I will control my moods and habits of sleeping. I will burn with more passion. I will work towards promoting myself and earning respect among my team mates.
I am not sure of Amy. She might be as confused as I was when I was 23. To be frank, if I die today, happily trapped in her world and friends, she might not even know that for months. For the first time, I have a fear of losing her. I could only try and that I will.